| Friday |
| burnt out |
With the completion of my first clinical rotation, I feel that I should be happy. But I am finding it difficult to bring myself to feel this way. It's not because my score isn't as spectacular as previous years nor that I didn't get anything out of this clinical. I think my mood can be completely attributed to my present state: burnt out, and maybe among other things better unsaid.
I am constantly looking forward to a full day's rest and a satisfying sleep in, but flicking through my calendar and my to-do-list, it seems that chances a very slim and close to impossible in the next month. And I frown at such misfortune.
So here I am, instead of getting ready for work tonight, I am sitting in front of my asus typing away, comtemplating whether I should get ready or not. I have just awaken from an hour's nap, so tiredness is no longer an excuse for me not turning up, nor are any other excuses excusable.
I find that it's becoming a bit of a bad habit. I accept shifts that I get called up to work out of politeness and I guess, impulse to replenish some of the money in my savings account that had been used on my trip overseas. But on the actual day of the shift, I chicken out and rethink my decision and decide to call in sick. This habit of mine should be condemned.
Okay, I should go to work tonight I guess. Perhaps to let them know I won't be returning. |
posted by sciurine @ 5:09 PM   |
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